The reality of surgery in 7 weeks is definitely sinking in! My mind is filled with “how will I cope with the pain?” “Will we manage the kids ok?” “How much will I miss my boobs?” “do I want some memento of how they were?”. This is reflected in my sleeping…….had some odd dreams and some pretty mean nightmares amalgamating previous fears of not being prepared for exams with current fears of surgery, fear my choice of date is wrong, etc. It’s not every night, and I’m just accepting that this is part of the path.
I discovered this week that a few of my really good friends are on holiday while I am in hospital, and this refreshed my idea of making up something positive to keep me going. So I asked some friends to put together a book for me! And to fill it with things that will make me giggle, or positive and uplifting words. Roamy has risen to the challenge and is being an absolute superstar sorting it out. I am SO thankful! I am looking forward to getting it but am saving it until after surgery when it will be most needed.
I’ve also been upping the gym workouts and it’s such a release of tension from bed times, crazy kids, day to day stresses etc and is keeping me focused on the things I can do to make this journey easier. A fellow BRCA sister suggested working on my core muscles so I can sit up without using my arms….which should make things easier post surgery. So I’ve been frequenting the rower…. :)
